Withdrawal

Fear.

Losing People.

I found out today that one of my best friends growing up committed suicide two years ago. I had lost touch. I'm not sure how hard its hitting me yet. I sobbed earlier.

Why did I lose touch?

How many have I lost touch with?

How many are there to touch?

Do we dare touch the untouchables?

Who do we choose to touch?

Who do we choose not to touch?

I found out from the director of the high school I attended who turns out to have been a Tibetan Buddhist practicioner for 30 years. It turns out the school was designed & built by students of lamas & a lot of the principals it was based on are Buddhist.

Fear.

Demons.

Hell.

Who am I?