Love that Burns, Death that Reveals

Artwork by Andrew Gonzalez

Can’t fight this perpetual perishing any more
Don’t even want things to be like they were before
My face is gathering enough lines to be a roadmap
And my body is clearly more than just a soul-trap
Can’t right this sinking ship
Don’t even want a longer-floating trip
My hands no longer obediently bail
Avoiding death is the surest way to fail
Can’t relight these worn-out candles
Don’t even want to retread my sandals
My heart keeps seeing endless emptiness
And keeps breaking open to hold just this
Can’t ignite what’s gone to ashes
Don’t even want to redo my crashes
My dying flesh brightens as it ages
Freedom keeps on singing in its cages
Can’t fight this endless dying any more
Don’t even want what I wanted before
My hands reach out then return
The circle at last able to freely burn
It was by this that we were haunted
This was what we secretly wanted
And it is to this that we must bow
Deeply fully and exactly now

Poem by Robert Augustus Masters

I wish you could recieve all of the Love that fills my Heart. I wish you could see the Beauty everywhere in everything. Especially in You. Especially in me. This body longs to be held before it perishes. It longs for human touch. This soul wants to be seen. It longs to be witnessed and to shine its light for you.

Gently, Gently I lay my head in the lap of my Mother & melt. My strength is my Heart. My weapon is Love. My stead is the Earth. My soul the Kosmos.

I am here.

A Confluence of Levels & Lines, Switch-Points & Fulcrums

Wilber/Colmes Lattice

Development is a tricky business & maps can take us only so far. Integral Theory is a bracelet I wear & not a collar around my neck. As I lead ILP workshops & help people with practice & get down & dirty with relationships & karma, the more I can see my own Shadow & lack of development in certain areas. High development along the horzontal state-stage axis is one thing, perspective taking & cognitive development another; but I am arrested in my emotional/affective line. My emotions flare up & I revert to child like reactions & overwhelming pain, fear of abandonment, loneliness & alienation. The Waking Down in Mutuality work helps, & therapy helps. It's a slow process as awakened Consciousness clammers it's way down into the depths, turning over every rock & spreading light into each & every dark corner. & the Great Relief comes in being with the Totality of existance; Relative, Absolute, Paradox, & Trinity. Trust in Being..... Trust in Being.....Trust in Being.
Amen

The Soul of New York

I have been struck recently by the magnitude of possibility that is New York. It is somewhat of a mystery why I ended up here & am excited to work with this magnificent locale that is New York. I have made a 3 year commitment to work & play - building a Integral Community Center with the Heart of America. More to come.......

God Bless America